Mis Nursie Whaley,
Medart
Fla.
[postmark]
ASHMORE
JAN 4 1904
FLA.
[back of envelope is torn]
[body of letter, page 1]
Sunday night 1/3/04
My Dearest Girl:
As I can
think of nothing but you, will
write you a short note to-night. As
I told you the other night I have
been at work to-day catching up
some of my back book work. I
know that I ought to be ashamed
of it, but I couldnt get time through
the week. I have been hard at
writing since noon - now ’tis way
after night. I am so lonesome
I dont know what to do. I would
give any thing in the world to be
with my darling Nursie now. You
have no idea how dear you are
to me, and I can find no words
to tell you how much I love you. I
can only say that I love you better
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than any one I ever saw or ever
will see - better than my own life.
Nursie you may laugh at me for
talking this way, and I expect you
do, but I cant help it, for I tell
you only the truth. I some times
fear you dont love me as I do you,
and it is then, that I have the
bitterest thoughts that ever cross
my mind. With your love I dont
care which way the world goes, but if you
were to tell me that you didnt care
for me I would be the most miser-
able wretches that ever lived. Sometimes
I am afraid that when I hear from you
it will be to tell me that you were
mistaken in what you told me, that
when you come to know yourself better you
find that you do not love me as you
thought you did, and now Nursie I
ask you for the last time, please dont
trifle with me. If you dont really love me
dont try to deceive me. Surely such
love as I have for you deserves this
much. Remember if you dont care for
me the longer you put off telling me the
harder it will be for me to bear. What
may only be a passing fancy to you
is something serious to me. Now Nursie
dont think that I am doubting what
you have told me for I do not, but some
thing tells me that you dont love me as
I do you and I can not get clear of it. I
can not explain it but I have a sort of
vague feeling that you have changed. I hope
I am wrong. You have no idea how bad I felt
Friday night when I first looked over the house
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and did not see you. I’ll admit
I only went to the dance to see
you, and I would go to Mr. Max-
wells next Friday night if you are
to be there, but if you are not go-
ing I dont care to. I wish you could
go as I would like to see you. When
I come again I will bring your ring -
that is if you will wear it. I would
have carried it to you the other
night but was afraid I would not
see you alone any. Quintus and Major
went to a dance at Sopchoppy last
night, but I didnt go. I was too
sleepy and I didnt want to go be-
sides, Quintus said he must see
his girl one more time before he left
and begged Major to go with him.
It is getting late and I am tired so
will stop. Excuse mistakes and please
answer soon with a long letter.
Lovingly Yours,
Jno H.A.
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Nursie please for my sake
dont show my letters to any
one. I would not like
for every body to know
what I write you, although
I dont care if they do
know I love you. You
are the one that is asham
ed of my love.
Good Bye,
John.
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